13 January 2008

Days 4 & 5: It's all a lie!

I'm sure most of you are waiting in anticipation since I didn't create an entry yesterday... yea right.  Well, at the end of day 5 I have come to one simple conclusion.  The promise that things will get better... is a lie!  I'm fairly certain that I'm never getting better and will continue in pain and soft foods for the rest of my life.

Ok, thats a little dramatic.  Surely it will all end sometime, but I'm not sure when.  Day 4 was really hard because I was really hungry but it hurt to even eat Jell-O.  So, I took some pain meds hoping that would allow me to eat.  Wrong.  Since I hadn't eaten anything, it made me nauseous.  So Day 4 was this terrible battle of needing to eat in order to take pain meds, but things hurting too much to eat.  Boo!  Today, Day 5, was better because I forced myself to eat some eggs when I woke up and then took some pain meds... so today was slightly better because I have consistently had narcotics in my system. :)  But, I'm still slightly nauseous, which isn't cool.

As far as getting better... I hope I am.  I hear that things get better after day 5; I hope that's true!  I need some sort of light at the end of the tunnel.  I've researched and read things online that would indicate I could be feeling much better any time between now and in another week.  It really varies for everyone... we'll pray that it's sooner rather than later.  I'm pretty hungry, tired, and bored out of my mind!  

For now, I'm calling it as I see it... the light at the end of the tunnel is a myth.  A farce.  A lie.  Hopefully tomorrow will being a different point of view! :)

1 comment:

Tessa Ashton said...

Oh Eric. I'm so sorry you are in so much agony. There has to be a light at the end of your tonsil, I mean, tunnel. And, if there isn't? Well, there have to be stronger pain meds around somewhere! Get better.